bcuz of NDP,gt a lot of trainings...trainings=drills Recently,or should i say 2day morning,i realised that i no longer get muscle aches after lyk super lot of drills! YAY! Which means that i won't get 'killed' bcuz of drills... Anyways,my drills sucks... I juz coordinate well n in the end go screwing up the whole thing...Haiz... I'm lyk sec 2 nxt year sec 3 n yet my drills r probably even worse than the sec 1s... Haiz...what should i do? Should i juz give n let it be? But...By doing this,i'll be letting my seniors down n being a loser or should i say COWARD!!! Am i juz a loser or cn i be a winner? Cn I? Am i lyk even up 2 standard? It's juz lyk that time when Esther scolded us on our 1st combined sch NDP rehersal...I cried...After that when ms tan scold...I cried AGAIN! Can't i juz become stronger? Am i supposed 2 be a loser 4 the rest of my life? Am I? I used 2 thought I had grown older n was able 2 control my stress lvl,but i was wrong...TOTALLY wrong... I grew worse n cried even more...When will i grow up?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!